So I guess you could say I’m a planner. Speaking of plans here I am thinking about plans that didn’t happen, ones that are yet to happen, and ones that have already occurred. Sometimes I feel like I get stuck on that first one, and right now is one of those times. I thought by now so many things would have happened in my life, yet few have actually happened. Today has been like a valley that I have been unable to get out of, no matter how hard I try. In these moments I remind myself that you cannot always be on top of the mountain. If you stay on top of a mountain you can’t appreciate the climb and sometimes the climb makes the view at the top of the mountain all the worthwhile.
Oh the plans that have yet to happen. This one gets me too. Y’all I am a worrier, I like to know. In these moments I remind myself of what has happened all the mountains and most of all the valleys I have made it through. I know everyone says this but worrying gets you nowhere because it truly doesn’t. His goodness is overwhelming, then I reminded I need not worry.
I am forever grateful of the plans that have already happened whether they were my own or not. They’ve got me where I am today and just wow. If you would have told my high school self that at 23 I would be where I am, I would have laughed. In high school I wasn’t the nicest person, was focused on the wrong things, and really had no sense of direction- in other words there was very little planning involved. Today I am grateful that I was that person because it got me to where I am today. Plans are meant to be changed, thought about, and appreciated.
Overwhelmed: verb; to overcome completely in mind or feeling
It doesn’t say a tiny piece it says COMPLETELY. Here recently I feel like it’s been just one feeling or another; doubt, insignificance, sadness, remorse, perfection, loneliness, comparison, defeat, or selfishness just to name a few. I keep thinking the cycle will end but ha-just kidding on to the next one.
Some days are worse than others when I hear a song, when I see a patient struggle, or when random thought feels like it transports you back in time. Some day’s I’m just surrounded by a fog. That’s when visibility is none and you can barely see the hand in front of your face. Still you put one foot in front of the other and act like nothing’s wrong because you have a certain mindset that you always have to be smiling or happy. Just to get alone and be overcome with whatever’s in the fog of the day.
In these times what do you do? Do you just wallow in it, or do you rise above? Here recently I am not happy to say I have let myself wallow in it more than I should. So here I am a new day, overcome completely with a feeling newness and refreshment. Here’s to turning on the high beams and making it through the fog no matter how dense. Here’s to staying focused on putting one foot in front of the other, to surrounding myself with good people, and being overcome with newness.
Don’t you just love it when someone puts something into perspective for you? Just in a way so clear that it makes perfect sense. Even better when it makes you wonder why you were even worried about it to begin with. Surround yourself with people that will do that for you. People who:
know what to say and when- or nothing at all
pick you up when you’re down
support you when they know you’re making the wrong decision, but you need the lesson the wrong decision will bring
will give you the hard advice that you don’t want to hear
will listen to you complain, even when they have bigger problems going on
laugh with you-sometimes at you
change the way you think
forgive you when you make a mistake
hold you accountable
pushes you outside your comfort zone
make you a better person
Above all people who will pray for you, with you, and love you for you.
So thank you to the people who do this for me, I am grateful for each and everyone of you!❤️
I’ve been struggling with finding a topic or even words to describe this last week in my life. I feel like a lot has happened and I’ve realized so much. So here it goes-life is short and I know you hear that all the time, but it really is. The sad truth is that we are not promised tomorrow. So why not make the most of every moment, forgive old grudges, let go of the apologies you never got, realize not everything has worked out the way you thought it would, and most of all appreciate everything.
Yes I mean everything- the good, bad, and in between. Thank Him for all of it. Yes you may not be where you thought you would be, have the friends you thought you would, be going to college where you thought you would, or have accomplished specific goals. But you are where you are supposed to be… Exactly where you are supposed to be. Over the past couple years of my life I have realized that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. When I graduated high school I wasn’t thrilled about the fact that I was going to Calhoun, but here I am finished with college(for now atleast), have a job that I’m super proud of, I’ve reconnected with old friends, and made some of the best new friends. The ups and downs got me to here and I couldn’t be more thankful. Life is precious so enjoy your journey❤️